one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it." - Oscar Wilde
Oscar Wilde is bitter, and this quote is the least of the proof of that fact. I wonder what wish it was that -- once granted -- cursed him so deeply.
And, at the same time, I get what he's saying here.
How many times have you gotten something you wanted, only to immediately start thinking about the next thing instead of enjoying it? I've done it dozens of times in both shallow and spiritual ways. And, I regret it.
So, is it possible to avoid the sense of tragedy Wilde describes? Or is this the human condition, to suffer either way?
I am thinking about how to keep the deep gratitude in my heart for the big and small things I have wished for for so long -- some of which I now have.
I want to do two things that may not even be possible: I want to appreciate and desire my current outcomes like I did before they were mine, and at the same time love them like I've always had them. To try to avoid the tragedies of unmet expectations or taking anything for granted, my current mantra is "Thank you." I try to prevent everyday life from dulling the sheen on my blessings and at the same time, keep me from making my current searches painfully consuming.
It does change a person to get what she wants. In fact, it is changing me wholly. And, in good ways. I also will acknowledge the sadness of the "getting" -- but not live in the mindset of a necessary struggle or the fantasy of a simplistic and specific outcome. I'm so glad I've had my wishes answered -- it's the joy (not the tragedy) of my life. Now, I only need to live in my current reality and be brave enough to enjoy it. Sorry, Oscar.
Cheers... to our blessings!
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